Okey Turns 4!

Okey's 3rd Birthday Party

Here is your brother, eating cake at his party. We had it later this year. Mommy kind of liked doing this because she seemed not to be so stressed about making everything perfect. It was also nice to celebrate both birthdays with just the family and then with a party for Okey later in the month. I thought that when he was born that I would always want one of his candles to be pink, to remember you. It is not as important to me anymore. I do not want him to feel sad in any way, or to feel that anything might take away from his day. I am not sure that it would, but just know, when I light his candles, one of them is always pink in my mind.

Happy 4th Birthday, Lillian!

Today you would have been 4! Wow, has it really been that long. Mommy still misses you and wonders about who you'd be today. Your still precious to your father and I. We still think of you, and we still cry when we do. I finally understand that saying "Time heals all wounds." I am not sure that a mother can ever think of being healed of the hurt of loosing a baby, but with God, all things are possible. I truely believe it. Maybe the hurt is like a wound that turns into a scar which fades with age.

Okey Turns Two

Okey's First Birthday

How We Celebrated Your Birthday

I had this day planned in my mind for a while. Daddy, Sissy, and I were going to go to the cemetery and release balloons with notes to you attached to them. Maybe we would have cake with a pink candle. Maybe I would get cups and plates, Maybe not.

You will never believe what we were doing tonight? Daddy and Mommy did go to the cemetery to see you and then we went to the hospital around 8ish. At exactly 10 PM, your brother, Okey Ronald Dutton was born, weighing over 9 pounds.

Happy Birthday To Me?

Today is my birthday. What a difficult time, but God, our friends and family are helping us get through this. I thought this would be more difficult of a day than it was. Although your gone, there are so many people here who love and support me. I miss you but I also thank God that He trusted and chose for me to be your mother.